As I sit here, listening to the news reports of yet another mass shooting in America, I can’t help but be overwhelmed by a WTF? mentality right now. Presently, the world has gotten barbaric and animalistic– leaving one to wonder “Have we lost our humanity?” looking at the various events occurring all over the world now, one would have to assume so. All this does is make me want to give up on people. Entirely. I can’t, I just can’t wrap my brain around the senselessness of it all; I’m not even going to try to be all intellectual and provoking in this piece. I just want to crawl in a hole and scream, because I know no matter how much I want to rally the troops in an effort to try to rectify the situation, I know it’ll only fall on deaf ears. Even now on socConnecticut Elementary School Copes After Shootingial media sites, we’re witnessing the prostration of false sincerity from millions of individuals, whom what to “chime” in on the sensationalism of it all. Why? Many are politicizing, preaching, protesting, and whatever appellation you may what to add to it all. However, at the end of the day, all one can do it shake their heads, feel helpless, and weep whether outwardly or inwardly.

Today, Americans had to hear of the tragedy which occurred in Newtown, Connecticut, where a gunman entered into an elementary school and proceeded to methodically shoot and assassinate twenty-seven innocent people, eighteen of those victims being children. Beings whom had their WHOLE entire lives ahead of them, little souls who will never get the chance to grow up, to marry and one day have children of their own. I’m disgusted!!!! How does this happen? How do we as a society allow for this to go on? Not to see the signs of mental illness in the individuals whom commit these heinous crimes. This brings to mind Stanley Kubrick’s “A Clockwork Orange”– a cinematic depiction of the degradation of modern society as seen through the malicious and savage behavior of its central character, Alex. One has to think, are we the reason these events are taking place? I think on some level we are, so to speak. We’ve forgotten that being human isn’t just a species classification, but an emotional mindset. We’ve become automatons– lacking feelings towards one another– looking only at our own gratification and the safety of personal possessions, never mind our fellow-man. Never have I felt ashamed to be an eyewitness to suffering on this level, especially when it happens to children. Believe me when I say my heart’s heavy at this time, and regardless of your belief, we should ALL hang our heads and pray for those whom we’ve lost to violence. It’s funny, we expect death during natural disasters, old age, and disease– deaths from this are easier to process and understand, however how does one comprehend when death comes at the hands of another? The prevention of it all is what grips at my soul the most, because GOD created us all, we are interconnected in some way, and to even envision a moment where hate can be displayed like this! sinks into the pit of my stomach. I can almost hear the sorrow in heaven as I typed this out.

Where do we go from here? How does the human race proceed from this moment on? Especially when our own future generations are now under siege! Do we hide? or shutdown?

During this time of holiday good tidings, where the world is supposedly joined in fellowship, peace and “love” I shake my head at the hypocrisy of it all.
Again, I’m not going to even be so bold as to try to be eloquent. I’m just going on pure and raw emotion. Children should NOT have to mature before their time, before they’re ready. A child should NOT have to be a chronicler of death and destruction– to see such horrors with their young eyes. I mean I don’t even want to turn my eyes to see it myself.

Sigh…even though my spirit has been shaken, my faith has not. With the uncertainty of these times, I still will have hope, in the heartbreak of the world, I still press on and hold steadfast in the thought that one day, we as a people, as a society and as a global family will get it together.

I leave you all with this…Please hug your loved ones tonight; tell them just how much they mean to you, hold them close, because you do not know whether the next time you’ll have that opportunity will come again.